Distant voices arguing in the background.
Why can’t I hear what they are saying?
The light seems brighter than usual.
Why is everything slow, yet fast at the same time?
Why do I feel like I am floating through this?
Nothing makes sense!
What am I even doing here?
My heart. It’s beating really fast. It’s getting heavier.
My breathing… It’s getting harder to breathe air.
Why can’t I breathe?
Why does it feel like someone’s choking me?
Take another deep breathe.
I am screaming inside.
The pain – unbearable.
Why can’t anyone hear me?
I’m sinking quick in my fears and insecurities.
This is that moment.
Will someone save me?
Does anyone know?
They cannot find out.
I am running now.
Inside the booth. Doors locked.
More silent screams.
Uncontrollable sadness and deep grief.
Tears roll-down. My heart aches. Every inch of my body feels drained and consumed by this.
I feel shaken. I feel numb.
Then chaos and confusion.
What was I crying for in the first place? I am not good enough.
The world says, it’s going to be fine.
There’s a secret I need to share.
This was just one of the many panic attacks.